The Pain Of Leaving

If we weren’t so close to our families this would be easy.

It has not hit me until today that I will be leaving my family for a while. As Shayla and I loaded up the kids’ belongings and clothes to take them to Shayla’s parents they said their goodbyes to their grandparents and great grandparents. I cannot help the overwhelming sense that I am causing our families pain. I know this will eventually subside but this is my cross for the time being. I do not bear it happily or begrudgingly but simply because it is mine.

I now have a slight understanding of what it must have felt like to be my dad or Shayla’s dad when they took their families away from the nest. The did it because it was something they needed to do. This I understand.

Understanding still doesn’t make the pain of the moment any easier. I’ve shed plenty of tears today.